Change is in the air

I haven't written in quite awhile. This is mostly because I had a viral sinus issue for 2 weeks, I finished up my last rotation ever last week, and since Friday night I have been in North Carolina visiting one of my best friends (and her husband). It has been quite busy. I have been studying like a crazy person for the past 6 weeks, and now I have moved on to Q&A books for review. I made a schedule for what I am supposed to study everyday from now until April 29th - which is my last Augsburg exam. I have yet to sign up for my National Board examination. First things first: graduate.

I have applied to numerous jobs but really only have two opportunities right now. One is a mostly Spanish-speaking job, and one is a little more relaxed in an endocrinology clinic. I really don't know what to do, for lots of reasons. There are hardly any, if not any, family practice jobs in the actual Twin Cities....so it's hard to pass up an opportunity. Oh, what a faith walk....do you wait for what you want, or do you take the job that is there? Lots of prayer, people, lots of prayer.

So, I have no idea what I am doing or where I am going.

Well, that's not true.

I am living each day doing what God has put in front of me to do. I study, I learn, I finish strong. But, I don't know what is ahead. Which, again according to Auntie Myrna, is the plight of all mankind. I guess what I "mean" by that is there are a lot of inevitable changes without foreseen outcomes. I am waiting for the pieces to fall into place. I can just feel the season of change inside of me though. There is a sense of adventure, wondering, wandering, and a lot of prayer. But, Lord, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I in the times of fear and anxiety. The temptation to sinfully worry, obsessive over, and feel anxious is right at the door. In these situations we have to have our guard up, right? We need to have the Sword of the Spirit, the Word of God, drawn and ready to attack/kill the temptations of the evil one. We have to abstain from what is evil and cling to what is good. We have to meditate on the Law, and His promises, and confess our wandering hearts. We take up our Shield of Faith and block the fiery darts of the evil one. We hide in the shelter of His wings. We take it seriously, we take sin seriously, we take God's Word seriously. To the outside world, and sadly probably even moreso to the larger Christian community, this will look like you are a fanatical/radical Christian. The radical ones are the Faithful who Fight! So, I pray God would grant me the grace to faithfully fight, that I may become more and more conformed to His image, covered in His peace, and devoted to His Word.